I have a funny feeling this last little downward spiral is due to Effexor. For the last couple of months I have been relying on the wonderful fog that is Seroquel which tends to keep my brain somewhat limited when it comes to emotions and feelings. Along comes Effexor and for what ever the reason I am now well aware of those little nasty thought patterns that are circling through my head. Through past experience I know this will past as soon as the brain becomes accustomed to all of the new chemical help at least til the next time the drug is increased.

Most people talk about the fog that comes with mental meds how they are unable to feel all of the happy moments around them but at the same time the negative tends to be a lot less severe so there is a definite trade off. Unfortunately to really experience the good you need to experience the bad for without evil good does not exist.

Through periods such as this I try to keep myself occupied with rather simplistic tasks that do not require any thinking or processing of any sort so for the last few days I have spent swearing at video games and basically allowing my brain to become use to the med with little interference from me. The danger in doing this is the routine gets thrown right out the window and before you know it your back to sleeping twelve plus hours a day, can't remember the last time you ate and the trips to the outside world are literally minutes per day. I think I am passed the hump so the first thing to do is reestablish the routine to resemble a somewhat healthy routine and get out of the pattern I currently occupy.

I want to thank you all for the amount of support and good will sent my way which is greatly appreciated and definitely helped. Til next time take care.